Ok my last entry was on 27/03, which is very much a short and boring one just so as whoever reading my blog knows that this blog is still existing...hahaha...
Eventhough ive updated then...i still havent mentioned anythg that has happenned before that...so this is it....
20th March 2007
The plan was for us to celebrate my Dadi's(grandma) 70th Bdae...at some Indian Restaurant if im not wrong...my dad and his siblings in this case my uncles and aunty had plan a gathering for my dadi.. . i rushed home after getting some books for referrences...(cos my exam was nearing) got dressed..and was really looking forward to meet my cousins and everyone else... when we were abt to go out, my dad received a call from my chacha(uncle) saying that my late Dada was really sick and they have thus cancelled the gathering or rather decided to postponed the gathering as Dada had to be taken to the hospital...i do remember 2 nites or so before that my mum told me that my Dada was very sick vomitting and couldnt eat and everythg...so this situation was very much expected but we just didnt know when...Dada was taken to the hospital via the ambulance because he was really sick....and he couldnt even walk... and so my whole family rushed to the hospital instead... Dada was under observation for quite sometime...meanwhile me and my cousins were accompannying each other so did Mr Bf...we talked and laughed like other grandchildren would do... we were all felt guilty and kind of heart broken that we had to cancelled Dadi's celebration...so Uncle Shah decided to still take Dadi out for late super..and i mean really late....all of us had to go...cos my aunty brought dadi to doll her up and everythg...back to the hospital...being CGH in particular...the observation was taking hours..literally hours ok....so Mr Bf, me, my bro and cuzzies went ahead to pick dadi up for our late super..we settled for simpang bedok...it was raining cats and dogs...nevertheless we were all worried for Dada's condition...by 12plus almost 1am..Dada was admitted...the doctors suspected a blockage in his intestines.... and so once everythg was done at the hospital...the rest of the family members came for super...during so..the siblings were busy discussing abt Dada's condition and everythg...while we kids were having fun singing and all...the nite ended at abt 3am as far as i could remember....
21 March 2007
Dada was in ICU...after studying i went straight to the hospital...the atmosphere in the hospital was very very gloomy...everyone had worried faces...i had to control my tears seeing Dada in that state..it was painful seeing him in pain...there were sign showing that it was going to be the time up for Dada to go back to where he belong..i was aware and so were the other family members...we were all preparing ourselves...many relatives came...some even came all the way from JB....i swear...having seeing those people...my heart was pumping so hard...in fear...i wasnt ready....many a times i wanted to cry but i controlled...
22-25 March 2007
I was busy throughout those days...running up and down frm Novena to Simei...everyday after studying i will go straight to the hospital...Dada was only in ICU for a day...and not to forget i had Mr Bf with me all the way...i really needed him..with the exam nearing and all this unexpected things...seeing Dada in that state every passing day made me more worried..i was already mentally prepared and each time i spoke to my good fren abt him...i kept telling her..."please if he were to pass on me..let it be after the exams....
26th March 2007
Dada was discharged from hospital...cos he could already eat and everythg...so it was good news...i had my first tuition over at Chai Chee..another tuition..he is frm my youngest bro's sch also...a rather smart boy...nothing much to update then..
27th March 2007
I had an interview at Kembangan for a place as a pre-school teacher in a Learning Centre...it went fine...and i wasnt really expecting them to call back...but i really wanted to work...after interview met Mr Bf and had dinner before heading home...when i got home nobody was around...my parents and lil bro was over at my Chacha's visiting my Dada...when my mum got home she told me that Dada is very sick...he started vomitting and not eating again..after hearing that i got worried again..and i prayed that he will be safe...i could hardly sleep that nite...although im not close to Dada...he is still my own blood...so naturally u will feel something..
28-29 March 2007
Went to study again with my close buddy at Novena again...but somehow that day i didnt feel like studying despite knowing that my exams was 2 days away... so we headed back to her place...and Mr Bf was picking me up frm there cos i was suppose to have tuition after that also.....while sitting down and talking with my buddy..btw her name is Melisca but i called her icha-cha...i received a call frm my dad...my heart was pumping real fast...i can still remember his words to me..
Aba: "shehnaaz, where are you?
Me: "im studying with my friend in Novena lah! y?" (irritated but felt guilty afterwards)
Aba: "what time you finish?"
Me: "finish already waiting for Aidil to pick me up and go for tuition. y?"
Aba: "ok can u cancel your tuition and go straight to chacha's hse..Dada is very sick."
Me: "huh? really....ok."(holding my tears)
after that conversation i started crying...and i calle dmy elder cuz to asked her if she knew of Dada's condition...i told her my dad say he was sick and all la...she told me she gg for tuition first..i was like Dada is really sick la..cancel ur tuition...so i told her go confirm his condition again with whoever..and i called my dad again.
Me: "Aba what ou mean by Dada very sick?"
Aba: "Shehnaaz, Dada tengah nazak ok." (dada is critical)
I immediately called Mr Bf and cried to him pleading for him to come fast...cos it was like dejavu...i didnt make it on time for my late grandmother 3 years back...so went Mr Bf arrived he comforted me throughout the journey...the moment i reached my chacha's place i ran straight to the room...i held back my tears....he was going anytime at that time...i was crying simply cos im having my exams just 2 days away for the first matter..and the second was that Dada was in so much pain..he was unconscious...i shant mention his condition and eveything here..haha
Many people came and prayed for him....comforting us family members...helping us prepare...i just did my part praying for him to go fast...i couldnt bare to see his state... i was told that he was in that state since 8plus in the morning...imagine how much pain he was in....by 1 plus in the morning...the last people who came to visit left...My dad and uncles together with the maid Su cleaned Dada up....my mum and aunt did some reading up to actually see what is wrong...that its so difficult for Dada to go..they realised that the position of the bed wasnt rite...(menghadap kiblat) so my dad and the guys repositioned the bed....while the ladies waited outside....time checked 1.45am...Chacha called for all of us ladies outside...he was like telling my aunty "baji opened his eyes!" we all rushed into the room...my dad was praying with Dada..it was the final moments...most of us were all in tears...my dad was strong...we prayed and prayed...(gosh as im writing now i actually feel like crying.shit!!) time checked 2.03am...Dada took his last breathe....we were all in a daze...and each and everyone of us made the necessary calls....
Another thing was that my younger cuz Taz wasnt able to be there...she was in Chennai,India for some nursing stuff and it was for 2 weeks...i guess it was written to be that way...
Back to the story....we all stayed up the whole nite and by early afternoon..my late Dada's body was safely burried...'Alhamdulillah'....
I was stressed and this time crying cos i wasnt ready for my exams the following day...
but anyhooss......the day of the exam came and i still sat for it...despite forgetting almost everythg...dammit...im hoping for just a pass btw...
And so that pretty much the very long happenings in my life till the end of March....
It has now already been 22 days since Arwah Dada left us...Muntaz came back on the 8th day...
Enough of the sad story of my life....on a brighter note...im officially now working as a pre-sch teacher over at Kembangan..yup it had been 8 days...yes yes yes...i was employed..i made it through the interview...yay...
Last Monday the 16th if April was my dad's 49th bdae...we had dinner just the family at Sakuntala Restaurant...a simple dinner...he wasnt in the mood after the lost....overall dinner was fine....
Yestersay was my cousin's 25th Bdae!!! So Happy belated birthday Kak Zeenat!! I love you and yes..i owe u a present!!! see you real soon...hehe
As for now...work have been real challenging and tiring....im working 5 1/2 days... so another day of work tomorrow and also tuition...sheesh...tired tired tired...me and Mr Bf hardly meet nowadays like the saying goes "absence makes the heart grow fonder"....i know it sounds so cliche...hahaha
Today is the 19th....Happy 4 years 8 months Baby....i love you and always will....god i miss u....cant wait till the weekends...
ok...im tired...and u peeps will get bored..i'll try to post some pics to make this more of a colorful entry...till then...toodles...
p.s i will try to update more regularly..heehee....(my prayer are with you dadaji) and yes my late dada was also the one who gave me my name Shehnaaz...i thank you dadaji....
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